Dear God of the Toddlers

Please give my sweet little Maddie her listening ears back. I miss my sweet little girl that would listen to Mommy. If you can't give her ears back, can you please give me a bottle of blood pressure medicine, something for the anxiety and a bottle of booze?

Dear God- please give me ALOT of patience.

As you can tell- my toddler has quit listening and I am at my wits end- already and it's only been a little more than 2 weeks. I am trying not to yell or get mad a her- but she is so pushing my buttons. I thought it was b/c of the baby. But she was acting this way right before the arrival of baby brother.

New Addition

Well.......

Jake Daniel is here and is perfect.

(Yes, he looks like his father, but I also see some of me and my side in him. In other words, if I hear one more freakin Egyptian say he looks like his Giddy (grandfather) I'm going to scream. I think Egyptians forget that there is a mother involved in the baby making process and everything doesn't revolve with the Daddy's side of the family. Now- I'm off my high horse.)

The delivery was crazy and so simple.

I walked into the OR at 1150. Dr. came in at 1200. Daniel walked in at 1210 and JD was screaming at 1214. It was all so quick.

Back to Jack Daniel......

I thought this boy was going to be a longer nurser. But, over the last few days he has turned into Maddie and is a quick, frequent snacker- once I get him on. For some reason, the boy thinks I am his person play toy until he is ready to latch on.

He seems to be pretty laid back, I guess he has to be with Maddie as a Big Sister.

I love him and am glad he is finally here.

Today is the Day!!!!

Last blog will Baby JD is in my tummy.

Still full of emotions. Daniel is super, super anxious and very nervous.

Can't wait to meet the little one and have him home.

If you are reading this, please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

2 days.............

2 days left have left me an emotional boob. I'm a crier anyway, but today has been crazy.

Today was out last day with Maddie in our house alone. Tomorrow- we go to the CDT to celebrate Easter with the family to to drop our little Bean off until we get back home from the hospital.

Every time we did something, I thought, "This is the last time we'll do this as a family of three"

We had a great time and let the little one get away with murder. Breakfast and movies in front of the couch, picnic in the park, chips for lunch followed by ice cream right before nap time, IHOP for dinner (Maddie even picked her own meal with no influence from me).
Even if she doesn't remember the day- I will.

At bed time, I cried so hard, I couldn't catch my breath. (not just because of the crying, but the allergies that are killing my sinuses and the fact Baby JD is all up in my rib cage and lungs)Maddie would ask if I was ok. I told her it was a happy cry and she told me "that is silly Mommy"

I'm sure I will have another crying fest once we leave Maddie at my Momma's tomorrow. Story to follow.............

3

I'm mad. 3 days left to eat and crave.

And damn pollen- it is putting a damper on my eating. My allergies have killed in and I can't smell or taste anything.

5 and 4

Sorry- I didn't post yesterday- I didn't go into labor. I was enjoying the beautiful weather with Maddie.

But, I did play a joke on Daniel this morning. I called him at work telling him I was in labor. If you know Daniel- it gave him a heart attack. He is way to planned for unexpected labor to happen.

Anxious- is the word to use for the Bessada house. We just want to see, hold and cuddle this little boy that has been in my belly for 39 weeks.

It is amazing that you can already love someone that you have never met. The feelings I had right before having Maddie are all coming back to me. It's hard to believe you can find even more love to share and give, but you can. There will be enough love to go around in our blessed house.